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Self-Compassion: 100 Days (91)

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Day 91:

I’m so motivated to finish this project in the next ten days, but today was full and busy. I haven’t worked at Radiance for quite a while, so it was delightful to spend the day in that wonderful place with those wonderful people.

Afterward, I couldn’t find my car in the parking garage. This is the second time this has happened. It makes me feel incompetent. Both times it has happened, I had checked where the car was when I left it, and then thought I had made a note of the correct level and placement of the car before walking away. This time, I figured out my logic error before I asked for help, but by then I had been walking around the parking garage for half an hour.

I’ve been working really hard lately on breaking my cycles of self-criticism, and then when I arrived early to the restaurant where I was meeting my people for dinner, I sat in the car and did the day’s mindfulness meditation with Tara Brach and Jack Kornfield, and it was on self-judgement and self-compassion. Whew. I needed that.

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Windhound: 100 Days (82)

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Day 82:

Before I started this recent mindfulness course, I thought of my scattered brain as a house full of squirrels. It was an apt metaphor for how I sometimes am, but maybe not so helpful. In this mindfulness course, Brach and Kornfield talk about gently bringing the wandering puppy of my attention back to the breath and the focus of the moment.  I have decided that my attention puppy is a little silken windhound named Iris. (I wrote this yesterday, and when I made my little reel on IG, I forgot which day I was doing, and titled the reel Windhound. I found a lovely little piece of music to accompany it, called “Windhound.”)

Five more Squares today. Maybe this weekend I can steam/block them, and then start patching them together. I’m going to have to buy more black yarn.

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Mindfulness: 100 Days (80)

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Day 80:

Twenty more days to go! I managed two squares today. Granny squares take longer than hearts and flowers. I saw more horned larks up at at High Point today.

This is Play Week at school, so often students are called out to practice during class time. Today, I was left with one student for about an hour. What a great opportunity to just listen to what is important to this about-to-graduate brilliant human. I am going to miss this class.

I am taking an online mindfulness course these days, with Tara Brach and Jack Kornfield. That, and the mindfulness practices in the wellness app I get through my health insurance, are helping me to inhabit time more thoughtfully and mindfully. The last couple sessions have been like Rumi’s “Guesthouse,” looking at emotions as they arise, naming them, bowing to them as guests, and being present with them.

I think of myself as a fairly grounded and mindful person, pretty self-regulated in general, and still, I have so much to learn about living in the moment; perhaps my sense that I am already comfortably mindful means that I have lots of learning ahead. Interestingly, Rob Brezsny’s post this week was about not getting dogmatic about the mindfulness of the moment, but doing that work in the context of recognizing one’s history of pain and trauma. Both. And. I love when synchronicity brings me messages about the thing I am working on at the moment.

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