Thunder Snow

Let it be known
that the chickadee and sparrow
were singing songs of spring today
as I dug myself out the tail end
of that first blizzard.

Gratitude List:
1.  Towhee at the feeder
2.  Mockingbird hanging out on the balcony
3.  Thunder snow–I know I have experienced it before, but the green lightning sort of threw me.  That was pretty exciting.
4.  The egg incident.  It’s on my gratitude list because it made me laugh today.  I started to shovel the drive this noon after I fed the hens and gathered the eggs.  There were four eggs, and somehow I forgot about them in the five minutes it took me to walk down the hill, and they were in the coat pocket on my right hip where I get a little extra leverage for tossing heavy loads of snow.  Yeah.  Egg soup in my pocket.  My coat needed a washing anyway.
5.  Reading Narnia with the boys.

May we walk in Beauty.

Gracious Goodness

Gratitude List:
1.  Strong boundaries
2.  Compassionate hearts
3.  The balance of boundaries and compassion
4.  Morning mist rising from my River.  When I say “my” River, I don’t mean it as mine alone.  Nor do I mean that it is my River exclusive of all other rivers.  But it can be my River and one of my rivers and still belong also to you and to all of us in the way that I can say you are my Friend, and yet you are not exclusively mine, nor are you my only friend, but that I love you in a particular way that is particular to our relationship.  My River.  The mist rises from it in the red morning light, and there is so much magic in it.  And also in you.
5.  And this: Goodness.  There is so much goodness in people, in strangers even.  And I know too many stories, especially in recent days, of people who fell to the lowest pitches of bullyhood and meanness and real evil when left to their own devices.  But this also is true, so gloriously true: that so many people are simply good, simply full of heart and tenderness and compassion.  That you do not have to bang on the doors or scratch very deeply at all before goodness oozes out all over, fresh and raw and sweet like honey.  I have seen it just today, how you can look into a stranger’s eyes and see it and know it is there, and follow it.   The guy who drives your tow truck may be a philosopher to rival the ancient mystics.  The woman who sells you groceries may have some rich wisdom about human nature that even the respected psychoanalysts have yet to figure.  So many wise ones to discover.  So many namaste moments to explore.

May we walk in Beauty.

Write Your Own Lexicon

Gratitude list first today, and then a task:

Gratitude List:
1. Words, dictionaries, semantics
2. Romance
3. A day of not-snowing
4. Sourdough bread
5. Lovey-dovey cats.

May we walk in Beauty!

Today’s task is to start your own dictionary.  I think I am going to call mine Words of Power, or Word-Hoard, or maybe Crazy Beth’s Lexicon.  It’s a project that will take more than today, of course.  I think I’ll put the words in the book that I put together every year (I can’t bring myself to say scrapbook,  but that’s essentially what it is.)

I haven’t yet read all of Kathleen Norris’ Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith, but the idea has inspired me for some time now: to think about words that hold particular meaning for me in my own spiritual wandering and wrangle the semantics.  These are my own personal T.A.R.D.I.S. words: like Doctor Who’s time machine, they are bigger on the inside than they appear from the outside.  As I have carried them about with me over time, they have taken on nuances and shades of meaning that may not have been there when I first picked them up.  They’re luminous and numinous (and those are both words that ought to make my list), shining from the inside, and suggesting that there is Deeper Meaning in the world.

Noticing:
This is the one I have chosen to define my spiritual story.  I want to be a Noticer.  It’s not a new idea, not my own, just a word that I have picked up and tinkered with.

Be conscious, be awake, be observant.  Live in the present moment.  Be here now, said Ram Dass.  Don’t walk past the color purple in a field and not notice it, says Alice Walker.  Be mindful.  Notice the white gull in a wintry sky, the way dawn creeps up over the river, the sound of the bluebird in the maple tree, the smell of gill-over-the-grass when you walk upon it.

Notice the way your lover’s eyes twinkle and sparkle when he’s trying to make you laugh, the way your child’s muscles relax as she settles onto your lap while you’re reading, the way your friend’s eyebrows crinkle when she tells you something that makes her worry.  Notice the way energy flows between people, the way the air crackles around someone who is feeling the power of her ability to communicate, the way the shadows creep around someone who is feeling depleted and anxious.

Bridge:
Every Christmastide–those 12 days between Yule/Christmas and Epiphany-ish–I pay extra close attention to my dreams, watching for images and words that I might harvest for the coming season of my life, to give shape to my emerging story.  This year, I woke up one morning not with a dream remembered, but with a single word waiting for me: Bridge.  Last year or the year before, I wrote a poem for an organization called Bridge of Hope which helps to set up community safety nets for women and children who have experienced homelessness.  My Waldorf friends speak of the Rainbow Bridge as the place where the souls of children come from the other world to this place, and where the living pass to the realms of the dead.  We create bridges between people, between places.

Build bridges between myself and my deeper self, between friends from diverse circles, between ideas that feel oppositional.  Build bridges of light and hope, of spiderweb and dreams, build bridges of words that cross chasms where lurk despair and rage and fear.  I’m going to be working on this word for the whole year.

Others I will add: Palimpsest, Graces, Luminous / Numinous, Web

What words will make your list?

Guest Poet

In response to my suggestion this morning to write a poem to cheer yourself up, my friend Cheryl Alvarez wrote this tender poem.  Thank you, Bright One!

Personal Choices

Work with the wind and the darkness.
They are your peace.
Hold tight the sunshine when it peeks from behind the clouds
to kiss your beautiful cheek.
Embrace the touch of the one who loves you most
For she knows your soul like no other.
Sing the songs of the birds, they are your harmony.
Today the pain will live among the kisses and melodies.
Let them dance with your tears.

Gratitude List:
1.  Reconciling, clearing the air
2.  The color cobalt
3.  Ancestors
4.  Poet-friends
5.  Leftovers

May we walk in Beauty!

Cheering Up

The task for today:
Write a little poem to cheer yourself up.  I’m not feeling particularly low, but I was grumpy about going out to shovel yet another dusting of snow off the drive this morning, so a silly bit of rhyme was what I needed.

Don’t be so low.
The snow will go,
spring breezes blow,
the goldfinch and the sparrow
will sing, “Sweet, sweet!”
and you will know
yourself again.

You Are Light!

Gratitude List:
1.  That reminder: You are the light of the world, the salt of the earth.  Be shiny.  Be savory.
2.  The way the snow defines the shape of the mountains so you can see their contours through their fur of trees.
3.  Making it safely home in that incredibly slippery snow.
4.  Synchronicities / miracles / synergy / magic / coincidence / Universal Intention / Divine Attention: So many words for marveling at the way things come together sometimes.
5.  Heat and light and water.

May we walk in Beauty!

How Deep is Your Love?

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Gratitude List:
1.  Heat
2.  Light
3.  Water
4.  Sitting Meditation
5.  This day*

May we walk in Beauty!

* Oh, this day!  Early morning, playing paper dolls with Joss.  Eight Dolls From Around the World to choose from, three of them boys, and my son chose to play with the the girl from Tahiti with the flowing grass skirt and flowers for her hair.  She was my favorite, too, when I was a child.  Then art projects with the children, Ellis drawing a schematic for his idea for an electricity generator and Joss drawing intricate tangle-monsters, and then all of us creating layered landscapes.

A calm, quiet afternoon with a dear friend visiting, doing paperwork together at the table like we used to 20+ years ago.

Listening to music from our younger days with the kids.  Here’s the playlist:
Michael Jackson’s Beat It
Weird Al’s Eat It
Boy George’s Karma Chameleon
Cyndi Lauper’s Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
The Bee Gees’ Stayin’Alive
The Bee Gees’ How Deep is Your Love (my favorite of the set)
Abba’s Mama Mia
Queen’s Bohemian Rhapsody

Nomads

We keep reminding ourselves that sometimes after big ice storms, power grids go down for a week, for weeks.  We have been told that we should have power by Sunday.  I keep remembering that there are people who don’t have at least a dozen friends and family offering warm houses, meals, showers.  It is humbling to remember that there are people for whom finding a warm place to stay, to keep their children warm–for some people this is a daily experience, not a response to a storm emergency.  And we have a place to go back to when all is said and done.

Oh, it’s frustrating having to strategize every morning what our day will be like, where Jon will go to keep the children warm while I am at work during the day, when we will go home to that cold house to take care of the cats and the chickens, worrying about whether the pump will freeze, whether the canned goods will freeze, what we’re going to do about the rotting food in the freezer when all is said and done.  But it’s also a bit of an adventure, like going on vacation here at home.  Spending the night with grandparents, eating out as often as we want to.  All is truly well.  What a safety net we have–so many good people offering help.  So much love.

Gratitude List:
1.  Warmth, warm places
2.  Plan B and C, safety nets
3.  Sunlight on snow
4.  The resilience of children
5.  Warmth, warm hearts

May we walk in Beauty.

First Song

Poetry First Song

 

Gratitude List:
1.  Fish Crows
2.  Rose quartz
3.  Gentle nudges
4.  Finding a rhythm
5.  Poetic voice

May we walk in Beauty!

Still in the Cocoon

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Gratitude List:
1.  Cocooning, hibernating, torpor, stasis
2.  On second thought: Work, productivity, getting it done
3.  Healing salve
4.  The people come together to bring about change
5.  Dreams

May we walk in Beauty.