Vigilance

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Gratitude List:
1. Inner vigilance.  Not panicky hyper-attention, but calm and thoughtful dropped and open attention.  So much to learn about the world.
2. The sun-limned cloud on the journey home from school yesterday.
3. Making art with  a small person.
4. Watching a small person dive headfirst into the world of literature.  (Now to make sure he can get anything else done.)
5. Honey.  Those bees know what they’re doing.  As Ellis said once when he was about three: “Honey is my favorite medicine.”

May we walk in Beauty!

The Contemplative and the Activist

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Two streams have been nudging me in different directions lately.

On one hand, I have been working through the Desert Wisdom Advent series from Spirituality and Practice.  While it can be frustrating to try to dig further into a contemplative life during the hustle and bustle of the daily, I believe that it is possible, and this is helping me to find my spaces.  I am trying to maintain that interior castle (was it Teresa of Avila who called it that?), the place of calm and contemplation that keeps me from getting whirled away by the whirlwind of the moment.

The other stream is the rising despair that I am feeling about the lack of will we seem to have in the United States to do anything about our mass murder problem.  We begin to look like people who live in a repressive political regime, unwilling and unable to make a change because the oppressor is too big for us to conquer.  But here it isn’t a government that is keeping us cowed and silent–it’s the NRA.  What keeps us from standing up and saying, “Enough already!”  The US has had more gun-related mass murders than there have been days in 2015.  I think we need an active anti-NRA revolution.

I glibly wrote something the other day about how the work of the contemplative needs to feed the work of the activist in order to keep the activist from despair, in order to keep the contemplative from irrelevance.  Perhaps that can be true.  Somehow I need to find the link.  Contemplation and calm are not the same thing as apathy and impotence.  Perhaps activism can be honed and sharpened by inner work.

Gratitude List:
1. New batch of fire cider on the way
2. Today’s brain is less foggy than yesterday’s
3. Thursday (it’s almost Friday)
4. Ginger
5. Rich colors for drab days

May we walk in Beauty!

Clear Vision

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“Amma Syncletica said, ‘There are many who live in the mountains and behave as if they were in town, and they are wasting their time. It is possible to be a solitary in one’s own mind while living in a crowd, and it is possible for one who is a solitary to live in the crowd of his own thoughts.’ “

Gratitude List:
1. Elderberry syrup
2. Story to listen to on the journey
3. Boy making Christmas
4. Clear vision
5. Developing the interior castle

May we walk in Beauty!

Nurse-Boy

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“If you will, you can become all flame,” said Abba Joseph to Abba Lot.

Gratitude List:
1. A small nurse-boy.  When they got home from their grandparents’ house yesterday, and I was waking up groggily and painfully from a nap, a small boy sprang into action.  He started rubbing my feet.  Then he called out to his dad, “Dad!  Bring her some food!”  Then he called out to his brother, “Hey!  Come rub her feet while I go get my violin and play her some music!”  No matter that he was doing his Worst-Whiner Schtick within minutes.  I felt greatly cared-for.
2. Feeling better.  I knew it would happen.  I still sound like a granddaddy bullfrog, and I look pretty pale and ashen, but I feel so much better.
3. This Advent course that a friend gave me.  It’s from Cynthia Bourgeault’s Spirituality and Practice group.  It is on the spirituality of the desert abbas and ammas.  I am learning lots.  Today’s lesson is hard.  It’s good for me.
4. Shifting practices.  I will continue to write regular poems, but I am glad for a break from the prompts for a while.  Imposed discipline from the outside is important, but then it needs to settle into the corners a bit.
5. Brownies

May we walk in Beauty!

I Am Here

Home sick from school today, but lost to be grateful for.

Gratitude List:
1. The painting of a road above the altar yesterday.
2. Singing, singing, singing
3. Ruby Bridges–her courage and her determination.  If a six-year-old could pray daily for those people who daily abused her, perhaps I can find it in me to pray for these presidential candidates who get my goat?
4. Meditation.  The Desert Ammas and Abbas.  Zentangle.
5. I know I will feel better again.  I sort of forget what normal feels like, and it has only been a few days of this.  Still, I know that I will get better.  I say an extra prayer for those who live with permanent or chronic illness or disability.

May we walk in Beauty!

Good Teachers

Gratitude List:
1. The many fine, intelligent, and loving teachers I have had in my life.  Today, I remember Myron Dietz who taught me Anabaptist History, and who died this weekend.
2. Oatmeal
3. Shoo-fly pie
4. Rainy mornings
5. Getting back into the schedule

May we walk in Beauty!

Sunrise

No prompt yet this morning, and I have to go help get ready for the second Thanksgiving feast.


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We’ve been playing gnomes again this weekend.  For a while, I had a dragon egg incubating there in the center of the labyrinth where the Queen is standing (in violet robes).  Then someone else needed the gems to make a gem mine, so I used the rocks to make a pretty excellent spiral. 

Gratitude List:
1. That sunrise: stripes of tangerine and violet, and a faint glow of cobalt shining through.
2. Photos of friends from far away appearing on my news feed this morning.  It feeds my spirit.
3. Time to play with the kids.
4. How a good stretch opens up breathing spaces inside.
5. Meditative drawing.

May we walk in Beauty!

Leftovers

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Prompt: Write a leftovers poem.

What you have is the residual,
the leftover, the new guiding principle:
When all is said and done the finest morsel
may be in the doggie bag
awaiting your next meal.

Don’t underestimate the power
of the second day’s feast,
the way memory seasons the taste
with her own sweet-savory-sweet,
how the sharp edges of solitude
define the shape of intimacy.

Gratitude List:
1. That streak of orange fox, lithe and muscular, that raced across our path yesterday morning while we were on the way to Thanksgiving dinner.
2. Laughing together
3. Singing together
4. Eating together
5. Moments of solitude, too.

May we walk in Beauty!

Luxuriate in Love

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May your baskets be overflowing.

Today’s prompt is to write a luxury poem.

Today, whatever you do,
take a moment to
luxuriate in love.

Gratitude List:
1. Taking a day to acknowledge gratitude.
2. Reason and logic
3. Magic and mystery
4. Honey and lemon tea
5. You.  Thank you for being in my life.

May we walk in Beauty!

Brilliant

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Today’s prompt is a Two-fer: Write a Love Poem/write an Anti-Love Poem.  I am going to take the prompt with me on the journey today and write the poem later.

Gratitude List:
1, Getting the work done.
2. Anticipating the break.
3. Knitting.  Knotting.  Holding it all together.
4. Lovely words:  Radiance.  Brilliance.  Cozy.  Meandering.  Love
6. Abundance.  I didn’t know what I was going to write on this one until I accidentally numbered it 6.  Abundance.

May your day be Brilliant.