Longest Day

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Happy Solstice!
Here we are at the longest day, the shortest night, the time of fire and of rampant growth.
Where do you find your fire?
This is the pollywog season, when the water creatures grow legs and arms and begin their movement onto the earth.
What is the force that spurs you toward action and change and transformation, that enables you to become a creature of more than one element?

May this cycle be fruitful for you.
May the sun bring you the transformation and direction you seek.
May you green, may you grapple and grasp, may you grow.

I did not post a poem yesterday–my pint-sized party planner was up early and demanding help with the Father’s Day preparations.  Here, for yesterday and this morning, both, is a Cinquain. a syllable-count poem of five lines: 2/4/6/8/2, and a rhyme scheme of ababb, abaab, or abccb.  I chose the third rhyme pattern.

Evolve Love

Evolve.
We grow. We move.
We struggle to transform.
We walk together through the storm.
We love.

Gratitude List:
1. That moon, right?
2. Here comes the sun
3. Gina Sue’s red Russian kale.  How that will nourish me this week!
4. A little morning solitude.
5. Now the summer really begins.

May we find our fire.  May we walk in Beauty!

Clouds and Dragonflies

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The road home.

Gratitude List:
1. The excitement of a couple small people preparing for Father’s Day surprises/
2. Clouds
3. Dragonflies and damselflies
4. The transformation of pollywogs to bullfrogs
5. Honey

May we walk in Beauty!

Cycle the Solstice

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Today is Cycle the Solstice, a local bike ride that takes riders through farm country, stopping for rest breaks at farms and farm stands.  We’re one of those stops.

Day 10 of All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)
The Prompt is to write a List Poem.
I think I am going to work on it this morning while we wait for the riders to come, and post it here later in the day.

Gratitude List:
1. Cool Morning
2. Laughter
3. Tears
4. Streams and Rivers
5. Learning new things

May we walk in Beauty!

The Wall Between Us

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Today’s prompt is a concrete poem, and I have been struggling with finding code that would work to fit this page. I may have to renovate my blog page this summer so that I can manage to do more create visual texts, but in the meantime, here is a link to the Document, because I couldn’t manage the formatting for this page.

Gratitude List:
1. (What wakes you up?) Birdsong, misty morning, small snuffly boy
2. (What disturbs you?) In yesterday’s class, the professor suggested that we interrupt our students after five or ten minutes of computer work, and have them ask each other questions or tell each other what they’re doing.  I asked if that wouldn’t be disruptive, and she said, “Precisely.” And it suddenly made sense to me, that we would intentionally disrupt a solitary process in the classroom to create interaction, to break the particular flow, in order to create space for new ideas.  I was worried about breaking their focus, but I really like the idea that when they’re doing certain writing tasks in class (perhaps not all), they need the intentional disruptions of their teacher and their peers.  This is different from the disruption of their neighbor showing them the latest youtube Fail video, of course.  I found the idea helpfully disruptive.
3. (What inspires you?) More ideas from yesterday’s class, to use WordPress blogs to create common collaborative spaces for students to share and peer review.  I am really excited by this possibility.
4. (What will draw you into the future?) The tasks of the summer.  Cleaning, sorting, preparing, playing with the boys
5. (What keeps you in the moment?) The feel of the air against my skin, someone I love whistling in the kitchen, the smell of coffee, the residual ache in my back (That puts a whole new twist on the grateful moment.  I would not be grateful for the ache in my back, but today when I feel it, I will remember it not as a symbol of aging but as a marker that keeps me focused on the moment at hand.)

May we walk in Beauty!

The Courageous Don’t Lose Their Fear

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I  have been taking two incredible seminars at Messiah College this week, under their School for the Humanities.  The one course was focused on a semiotic response to Harper Lee’s Go Set a Watchman.  I have enjoyed it for many reasons, not least of which is the philosophical survey review, from Sausurre to Derrida to Bakhtin among others, philosophers whose work I have appreciated in years past, but who have slid off my radar.  I appreciate how these thinkers are as applicable to this historical moment as they are to literary theory.

Sausurre theorized about how we are all embedded in our own culturally-generated worlds of perceptions, and how these worlds (he called them langue) are defined and marked by signs and symbols that further enculturate us and embed us within their realities.  This kind of talk is fairly easy for someone who comes out of a Mennonite context and has spent her life trying to think through the signs of her Mennonite sub-culture and how those signs are transformed (or rejected) as the individual grows and Becomes.  Dr. Downing, the professor, kept saying–If you want to change someone’s mind, you can’t just tell them differently, you have to change their signs.  Or perhaps get them to look at different signs. This was a powerful statement in terms of Sausurre’s philosophy, which can tend to see the individual as static, so permanently situated within cultural contexts that change is virtually impossible.

Derrida, in particular, reacted against the binary nature of Sausurre’s philosophy, proposing that rebellion against the binary is simply a reinforcement of it, switching the dominant for the secondary binary.  For example, a child who reacts to the parents’ binary belief in the evils of cigarettes by choosing to smoke is only reinforcing the parents’ binary view, not escaping it (I am going to maintain my particular binary that asks my children and students to look on cigarette smoking as unhealthy).  To change systemic perceptions, then, becomes a matter not of flipping the binary, but of escaping it–or, to use Derrida’s words, of deconstructing the binary.

In terms of some of my own current rebel rages, I wonder how we can culturally begin to deconstruct some of our weighty binaries.  Today, I am acutely aware of the issue of gun control in our country.  I think that most of us who would like to see AR-15s and their ilk off the streets are trying to deconstruct the binary that the NRA keeps trying to enforce with an incredibly effective campaign of signs and symbols.  The NRA claim that it’s a dire binary–either there is no gun control whatsoever or Obama is coming to take all your guns away–has been effective beyond any sense of logic.  If you take a breath and look at the true story, most of us just want to deconstruct that binary.  Most control advocates I know, including myself, are not seeking to gut and destroy the Second Amendment.  We just want murderers to have less access to their weapons of choice.  Talking and raging about it has not broken through the fortress of illogical signs that the NRA has set up.  What signs do we need to develop and create in order to bring sense to this story?

My own response continues to be that we need to destroy the NRA.  I still think that, but I think that somehow we’ve got to be publicly deconstructing this binary in a way that reaches the most fearful buyers-in to the NRA lies, creating new signs that reach that set of people.  I don’t know how that happens, if the images of people gunned down by these machines of death have only produced further strengthening of the NRA’s positions.  But I know that it has to happen.  Now.

Today’s poetry prompt is to write a Place poem.  (I am skipping the Concrete poem for now because my grasp of the html/CSS/whatever coding is not strong enough to figure it out on this page.

Day 7 of All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)

It Is Always There

Every poem I ever write
will be about this green bowl,
set in the side of the ridge,
the way rains last for hours
after the clouds have passed
and the slow drip-drip
from laden leaves continues
as the mist dissipates.

It is there, even in the raging poems:
the alarm call of the wren, unspoken
perhaps, but present in the shadows
of the green leaves of my words,
or the cracking of a branch
and its fall through the wood,
or the wild rush of the creek
when it has overflown its banks.

In every word of comfort or blessing,
listen for the rustling of the breezes
over grassy patches filled with plantain,
with wild chamomile and clover.
Listen for the murmur of a bluebird,
for the silent and masterful weaving
of a spider at her careful work.

When I walk into the room of a poem,
it is always begins in this place,
with the wren and the crow
and the patient green.

Gratitude List:
1. Opening doors in the rooms of the head for new ways to conceptualize
2. Gentle rains
3. Dreams in which I am finding my way
4. A chance to chat with my sister yesterday
5. Grit, will determination

May we walk in Beauty!

Blackout Poem

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Today’s Prompt is a Blackout Poem:
This is Day 7 of my All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)

Artfully worked blackout poetry takes some time, and I do not have much of that and the moment.  I raced through an article titled “Opt for the Legume?” in a newsletter from King’s Agri-Seeds.

should you consider
the relationship

the answer is
just as important
an issue

if you stand
you can yield

if you raise the matter
the synergy is better

either way,
you shouldn’t do it

it comes down to asking yourself,
how much benefit are you gaining
either way?

thrive in certain situations

Gratitude List:
1. Spending time in the head.  Words, words, words.
2. Signs
3. Allergy reprieve (I think)–yesterday was a really difficult day, allergy-wise.  Today will be better.
4. The trio of roadside flowers: Queen Anne’s Lace, Orange Day Lily, Blue Eye of Chicory
5. Green

May we walk in Beauty!

Voicing the Lies

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Day 6 of All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)
Today’s Prompt is to write a poem in which every line is a lie.  Hmmm.

The Lie

Nothing you can ever do will make a difference.
Your voice is too small to be heard.
Love is not the answer.

Throw money at the problem–that will solve it.
You cannot succeed, so don’t try.
It’s just not worth it.

The world around you is a hostile place.
Everyone else is out to get you.
You have to go it alone.

Gratitude List:
1. Signs and wonders
2. Shine and sparkle
3. Resolve and grit
4. Hope and anticipation
5. The renewing process of breathing.  In. Out. In. Out.

May we walk in Beauty.

Swimming in Semiotics

Love is Stronger

From the Facebook Page of Mykal Slack.

Poem for today and for yesterday:

Oh give me the words
to make a gentle nest–words
that harbor and heal.

Gratitude List:
1. Words.  Metonymics, semiotics, heteroglossia, chronotope. . .  I am at a Teachers as Scholars conference at Messiah College.  Loving the words.
2. Two crows conferring in a yellow field
3. The perfect V of geese along the highway
4. The helpers.  Look for the helpers, says Mr. Rogers
5. All the healing things: words, laughter, hugs, glances, touch

May we walk in Beauty!

Watching and Being Watched

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I came across these old photos yesterday, three random photos of different years tucked together into an envelope. Top: 2000, Middle: 2014, Bottom: 2006 (Bumblebee boots).

Day 4 of All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)
The Prompt is to write a couplet.  I am balking, but perhaps I should try.
***
Like a great oak tree, within your leafy heart
I see how you protectively conceal
your secret griefs. You stand apart
and only partially reveal

the aches and losses that have brought you low.
Be strong, my friend.  Some day you’ll let them go.
***

It’s hard to put things into rhyme, but satisfying, too.  I couldn’t find my way to a couplet until I hit those last two lines, and I feel as though the poem sounds more like an accusation than it is intended.  It is meant to be simply a way of saying, “I see that you are carrying your past pain with great determination.”  At first, I typed: “the aches and losses that have brought you down. / You wear them like a martyr’s crown,” which I think is poetically stronger than this, but it didn’t say what I wanted to say at all.

I want to keep working with couplets and rhymes.  I do not usually actively rhyme in my poetry, but I try to pay attention to the internal assonance and consonance within the lines, and trying to form a poem around a rhyme is a helpful exercise. I think it opens new processing pathways in the brain.

Gratitude List:
1. (Who did you see?) That soft-eyed curious doe who stood on Oriole Bluff behind the house and watched us watching her through the dining room window.  We did not climb the hill to see, but I have a hunch that she may have hidden a dappled child of shadow in the tall grasses up there.
2. (What was magical?) Fireflies like sparks, like stars, twinkling all around us.
3. (What was satisfying?) Making fire with the children, roasting marshmallows and hot dogs.  (This was the first that I have really craved meat in the past year, but Jon had bought some vegetarian “sausages” that were mostly sufficient to the moment.)
4. (What is energizing?) I will be finished with my grading by the evening.  It was hard, so hard, to get into it yesterday, and I fought it off by organizing papers and stacks from the year.  And now, those stacks are organized, and I am also almost finished with the grades.
5. (What do you anticipate?) Continuing to find the rhythms of summer.  I have a Teachers as Scholars seminar at Messiah College this week, so I cannot quite set up the new patterns, but I want to give parts of each day to preparing for the fall and to working on some writing projects.

May we walk in Beauty!

The Doorway Out is the Doorway In

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Collage by Sato Masahiro, also known as Q-ta.

Today’s poem is to be an ekphrastic poem.  I love the play between word and image.  For the image, I found a perfect collage by Q-ta. I think I will try to work on my own collage techniques this summer.

Day 3 of All the Things I Wish I Had Said (While You Were Still Here)

The Doorway Out is the Doorway In

You will come to many doorways.
Seek the ones that open inward,
the ones that take you in and down.

Always seek the road with wonder
in your heart, in your hands. Wander
freely through the hallways and the tunnels.

Be both polite and firm with everyone
that you encounter. Within these passages,
they will be mirrors and reflections.

Look for the landmarks, the shining pebbles
that glow in the darkness, the typical turns
that remind you of turns you have taken before.

Stay with the story as it unfolds within you,
finding new doorways and passages inward.
Make up new words for the forces you find.

Do not be frightened of losing your way.
Getting lost here is the way to be found.
The doorway is out is the doorway in.

Gratitude List:
1. Time: Keeping time, watching time, measuring time, how the concept of time is bound up with the concept of space
2. History: How a place gathers its history around it–that way people do, too, taking on the aura and the shape of what has been
3. Conductors and Historians: People who search out the stories and keep track of the past, who share it eagerly.  When the Columbia Trolley stopped yesterday to pick us up, I had a sudden odd and delightful sense that we were prey and the historians on the trolley were hunters, happy to have new people to tell the stories to.  We happily obliged.
4. Endings, which carry in them the seeds of new beginnings
5. Beginnings

May we walk in Beauty!